true form

I’ve finally reached the point in therapy where we talk about present challenges. Although up to now there has been present application, such as talking about work life and not allowing mental “issues” to undo or undermine present intentions, almost always we end up back with childhood conditioning and trauma. We mostly acknowledge those things,Continue reading “true form”

On the turning away…

Having drained my storehouse of podcasts while home during peak pandemic, I went searching and remembered Buddhist Geeks, a modern, techie philosophical podcast I let drop years ago, in favor of a more Vajrayana focus. They’re still going, talking about psychedelics a lot (which many seem to be doing, almost as much as bitcoin), butContinue reading “On the turning away…”

all the little things

When I first came out of therapy, I had the sense it had been a mere stepping stone to the higher way of meditation. Whereas therapy would leave me drained and sad, contemplative study generally elevated my outlook and stirred innate playfulness. I laughed more, felt as though everything ordered itself into a friendlier context.Continue reading “all the little things”

Variations on a Dream

I am walking from ‘the house’ toward the front gate on familiar chipped square tiles. I encounter three ferociously barking rottweilers. They are to the right of the path, in the part of the yard where one of the avocado trees rains down the largest leaves. I feel afraid. I wake. —– I am walkingContinue reading “Variations on a Dream”

The Singing Gecko – Part 2

Most adults with “serious responsibilities” find it hard to relax, to allow ourselves to open up and play with life. Perhaps that’s why we remember the moments in which we do so clearly. Having shared the early stages of my romance with awareness in Part 1, this tale becomes more fun. At some point IContinue reading “The Singing Gecko – Part 2”

Singing Gecko, Part 1

What I’m about to share is a whimsical little story about a pivot point in spiritual exploration which holds a sweet spot I’d like to convey. Curtain opens to a typical therapist’s office: wall of books, comfy sofa with a throw nearby, big wooden desk. Me, on that sofa, eyes darting back and forth, tissueContinue reading “Singing Gecko, Part 1”

elegant rags

The feeling of brush, paint, paper… stirs comfort, ease. Then Prisma makes the image shareable, muting colors that were too bright or didn’t mix as well, highlighting stroke detail… even imposing a few things I might have added with greater skill, or if I’d be using my preferred medium of oil. Acrylics dry so fast!Continue reading “elegant rags”