Collision with the Infinite

Picked up a surprising book written by Suzanne Segal, who’d been a student of Maharishi Mahesh Yogi before becoming disillusioned with aspects of the TM organization. It is written in a matter-of-fact way for being, by the end, a quite revolutionary story about awakening and the ‘no-self’ insight, and uncannily, its arrival is perfectly timed…

healing crisis, part 2

I cried a lot again today, after a few days of laughter and celebratory hoopla. Mostly: baking. It was, it is, a wonderful holiday. Although still in healing crisis, it was the healthiest I’ve felt for Christmas in over 5 years, and we planned very well for once, events scattered with days in between, starting…

looking back, 2018 (part 2)

Before my daughter and I settled in to watch the 2016 election results come in (with several craft beers and lots of snacks), she pulled a Tarot card: The Tower, Reversed. It is a card that means change, with an image that indicates turbulence and upheaval.

looking back, 2018 (part 1)

If you ask me in March or September, how the resolutions I set in December the year before are faring, the answer would probably be, not well. However, if you ask me in December (now), how those same resolutions are faring, lo and behold! Something has usually shifted significantly along the lines of those intentions….

healing crisis

I’m waiting in the office, warming up, stretching. She enters with a smile, asking: “So how are we doing?” I’d determined not to make a big deal of it but immediately hear myself pour forth, listing all the weird aches and pains and oddities since the last visit, the more-than-usual erratic sleep patterns, and my…

Pure Consciousness Experience

I learned last night, due to not being able to sleep and turning on a Buddha at the Gas Pump interview, that there is a modern term for that experience of the gap between thoughts, for the resting place  that interrupts the usual stream to such a degree that radical change is possible: a pure consciousness…

Being at Ease

I’m moving into my third week of physical therapy – something that, even after a roller-coaster of treatments over almost twenty years, I’d never thought to try until my daughter had trouble with migraines and found it tremendously helpful. It is usually the case that when you first begin a new thing, the payoff feels…

Burning (Beoning) 2018

Originally posted on (for the love of) nothing profound:
After quite a bit of searching, finally, I caught this film at the nearby Art Cinema. There was a larger crowd than I thought there’d be; half of the theater like me, persons attending alone. This is the kind of crowd I love seeing such a…

NaNoWrimo part 2

I get it! I get the magic of NaNoWrimo! It is this: that even after finishing, and even after finishing without winning the big prize (50,000 words), I want to write and keep writing, a lot, just for the feeling of writing, just for that joy at hand. It wasn’t being skeptical of the process that…