many-worlds friends

It’s strange to consider his passing, although I’d felt his fading out of view steadily, for a while. This friend and I met in a virtual space dedicated to skeptical Buddhists, both with not-quite-healed wounds from fundamentalist childhoods and serious physical limitations (his greater, handled with more grace), but also qualities of joy, curiosity, andContinue reading “many-worlds friends”

rearrangement

Back to dreaming and remembering dreaming. Have missed that. The dreams are not hyper-insightful, but they are interesting, such as last night’s where I attended a once brother-in-law’s wedding. Neither ex nor BIL were there, but I got along fabulously with his new husband, and the party atmosphere was just my vibe… colorful and inventiveContinue reading “rearrangement”

Just the greeting, just the wonder

I feel as though I’ve been in some awkward spiritual state for a while now, missing highs and lows present in most of the rest of my micro-lifetimes. Mainly, it is a certain synchronistic flow that has so often seemed ‘me’ I’ve had to get used to not being as strong nor obvious. Perhaps trustContinue reading “Just the greeting, just the wonder”

Turiya, Turiyatita

Andrew Holocek on Buddha at the Gas Pump. So many wonderful quotes, but his passionate interest in dream yoga is why I’ve read some of his books several times. I may not lucid dream much these days, but the interview was a spark ignited to remember this way of being. “Awareness of Being, is bliss.”Continue reading “Turiya, Turiyatita”

Pokemon Bardo

If the meditator is able to use whatever occurs in his life as the path,his body becomes a retreat hut. ~ Jigme Lingpa So, for all my listening to Buddhist audios and contemplating bardos, when I came out from under anesthesia I was playing Pokemon rather than chanting mantras or meditating on bliss! My fingersContinue reading “Pokemon Bardo”

The Rest

I’m surprised! It’s been over a week since I wrote the previous entry, during which time I’ve listened to several Vajrayana related audio books–a few multiple times. Not all the lessons (mostly talks given during retreats) hit me the way Bliss of Inner Fire did, but understanding feels to have taken a leap, integrating theContinue reading “The Rest”

On Imperfectionism and Unfinishing (TSK Journal – 7)

The word imperfectionism appeared in the air around me this week, for good reason. Since the beginning of the year I’ve taken on several things I can in no way fully accomplish quickly–things that require prayer. By which I mean, I can’t see the end of them and must leave space for pregnant possibility. TheseContinue reading “On Imperfectionism and Unfinishing (TSK Journal – 7)”