I’m laying on a heating pad, playing with a contemplative exercise a teacher I regard highly gave to a group years ago. I am one of two people in that group who actually did the exercise I think, much less two or three times. Each time was revelatory. It is a surprisingly radical act toContinue reading “How Does Your Life Seem To You Now?”
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Arrival
A little loop of synchronicity as I skimmed through blog posts all the way back to the beginning, surprised to find that I’d started where I find myself again right now: reading Time Space and Knowledge. When I began this blog, I was at Exercise 17, while I’m almost to 14 now, working my wayContinue reading “Arrival”
Waking from the Dream of Time
Recently, I’ve taken up practices associated with a book I’ve long been interested in, Time Space Knowledge (Tarthang Tulku). This happens every few years, that I begin anew with the book as though opening up forgotten passageways between ‘my’ world and a sometimes hidden place… not as an act of will but as though thereContinue reading “Waking from the Dream of Time”
Dear woman walking the garden path alone
You let the others walk their paths faster –allowed them all to go ahead Dropping back you slowed into the wild areas to breathe the sound ofto breathe the feel of bambooyou then smiled acknowledging meat the periphery walking with youwalking alone
A Year Without Miracles
I’m heading back into Buddhist study after a period of necessarily letting some air out of my practice. By which I mean, I think there are times in which it is impossible to take in too much learning, but then there are times to see what is actually draw-from-able in an active way. What isContinue reading “A Year Without Miracles”
On Being a Friend
I have learned something uncomfortable-but-transformative about my capacity to be a friend this week. It is this: I don’t believe enough. I’m fortunate to know many expressive people, some of whom are successful at enacting their dreams and visions in the world, most in less sure stages of development. There are people so clear aboutContinue reading “On Being a Friend”
Interplays
I had an insight about the end of my marriage recently, while musing with notions of sexuality and gender in a way I wouldn’t have before this year: iI realized that when my then husband became a father, he suppressed feminine aspects. A playful and flirty man who could be flexible and gentle, creatively communicative,Continue reading “Interplays”
true form
I’ve finally reached the point in therapy where we talk about present challenges. Although up to now there has been present application, such as talking about work life and not allowing mental “issues” to undo or undermine present intentions, almost always we end up back with childhood conditioning and trauma. We mostly acknowledge those things,Continue reading “true form”
One year-ish later…
My goodness, it’s been nearly a year since I’ve written here! Maybe I shouldn’t be surprised, but I didn’t mean to drop the blog altogether. Whisper: I’ve written a journal which amounts to a small book in that time (roughly 50,000 words now), mischievously titled How to be Estranged. I may share pieces of itContinue reading “One year-ish later…”
Don’t answer that
It’s been a while, but I need to write. About loss this time. Maybe I’m always writing about loss. How to reconcile with losing. Losing to those I was taught we should not be losing to especially, justice weeping endlessly. Losing to time. Constantly losing to time. Losing to the weight of expectations, and toContinue reading “Don’t answer that”
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