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just this day

Making resolutions seems a mere coping mechanism. Maybe it is coping mechanisms all the way down. 9:30 AM and I determine to write every morning–determine to write to get into the right mindset. What about writing “one beautiful thing a day”? I consider. What about just going with the flow, moment to moment? Which willContinue reading “just this day”

On Mud and Lotuses

“When humans ascend they are still human. When humans descend they are still human.”-Heaven Official’s Blessing I can’t get enough of reading these days; the outwardness of the last few years, for better or worse, may have finally reached its fill. Just in time, work conversations have become book-swapping, friendships taking on new risks andContinue reading “On Mud and Lotuses”

Sacred Ordinary (TSK Journal – 6)

There is no 100% analogy, but one of the ideas I like to consider contemplatively is ‘outward’ life as a mirror of mind, and mind as a kind of petri-dish in which influences have a chance to interact. It does seem to me that although I can’t always choose the influences (I can choose some),Continue reading “Sacred Ordinary (TSK Journal – 6)”

Ghost Writer (TSK Journal – 5)

For the first time in several years, I am reading many books at once. Or at least, I’m dabbling in many while deeply reading few. Most are fiction, a few are activism-based, and then there is TSK. Some days I read furiously, as much as possible, as though digging tunnels to make an escape. Others,Continue reading “Ghost Writer (TSK Journal – 5)”

Stephanie is Disruptive (TSK Journal – 4)

[[I haven’t picked up the book for a few days, but continue musing on the feeling and notion of the the book itself, even closed(!), as a practice. Why, oh why, is the way I work with things so odd, when compared against what others describe!]] One of the few notes I have from childhoodContinue reading “Stephanie is Disruptive (TSK Journal – 4)”

Too Late (TSK Journal – 3)

I’ve been watching the effects of the letting go I’ve done this year so far, of ‘supports’ of a certain kind. Going down to once every-2-week therapy sessions is one thing. I definitely see the effects of that, because I do write more and try to lean out more into more public expressions of myContinue reading “Too Late (TSK Journal – 3)”

TSK Journal – 2

Everglades He says, from behind the steering WheelOf his imposing Machine That by taking certain roadsBetween the grassy lakesThere will open a pathway It’s more of an adventureThan I set out forOn this particular day But Indeed the tall grasses Do part As we driveFull speed Right through Resources no object Am I sure thereContinue reading “TSK Journal – 2”

TSK Journal – 1

Writing a memoir (which I’m doing as part of therapy/coaching) while studying TSK, is exceedingly strange, but also one of the most interesting things I’ve ever done. I’m fascinated by the way I reach for something that at first seems so tangible and sure, only for it to wiggle and change the closer I get.Continue reading “TSK Journal – 1”

How Does Your Life Seem To You Now?

I’m laying on a heating pad, playing with a contemplative exercise a teacher I regard highly gave to a group years ago. I am one of two people in that group who actually did the exercise I think, much less two or three times. Each time was revelatory. It is a surprisingly radical act toContinue reading “How Does Your Life Seem To You Now?”

Arrival

A little loop of synchronicity as I skimmed through blog posts all the way back to the beginning, surprised to find that I’d started where I find myself again right now: reading Time Space and Knowledge. When I began this blog, I was at Exercise 17, while I’m almost to 14 now, working my wayContinue reading “Arrival”