Making resolutions seems a mere coping mechanism. Maybe it is coping mechanisms all the way down. 9:30 AM and I determine to write every morning–determine to write to get into the right mindset. What about writing “one beautiful thing a day”? I consider. What about just going with the flow, moment to moment? Which willContinue reading “just this day”
Author Archives: StephC
On Mud and Lotuses
“When humans ascend they are still human. When humans descend they are still human.”-Heaven Official’s Blessing I can’t get enough of reading these days; the outwardness of the last few years, for better or worse, may have finally reached its fill. Just in time, work conversations have become book-swapping, friendships taking on new risks andContinue reading “On Mud and Lotuses”
Sacred Ordinary (TSK Journal – 6)
There is no 100% analogy, but one of the ideas I like to consider contemplatively is ‘outward’ life as a mirror of mind, and mind as a kind of petri-dish in which influences have a chance to interact. It does seem to me that although I can’t always choose the influences (I can choose some),Continue reading “Sacred Ordinary (TSK Journal – 6)”
Ghost Writer (TSK Journal – 5)
For the first time in several years, I am reading many books at once. Or at least, I’m dabbling in many while deeply reading few. Most are fiction, a few are activism-based, and then there is TSK. Some days I read furiously, as much as possible, as though digging tunnels to make an escape. Others,Continue reading “Ghost Writer (TSK Journal – 5)”
Stephanie is Disruptive (TSK Journal – 4)
[[I haven’t picked up the book for a few days, but continue musing on the feeling and notion of the the book itself, even closed(!), as a practice. Why, oh why, is the way I work with things so odd, when compared against what others describe!]] One of the few notes I have from childhoodContinue reading “Stephanie is Disruptive (TSK Journal – 4)”
Too Late (TSK Journal – 3)
I’ve been watching the effects of the letting go I’ve done this year so far, of ‘supports’ of a certain kind. Going down to once every-2-week therapy sessions is one thing. I definitely see the effects of that, because I do write more and try to lean out more into more public expressions of myContinue reading “Too Late (TSK Journal – 3)”
TSK Journal – 2
Everglades He says, from behind the steering WheelOf his imposing Machine That by taking certain roadsBetween the grassy lakesThere will open a pathway It’s more of an adventureThan I set out forOn this particular day But Indeed the tall grasses Do part As we driveFull speed Right through Resources no object Am I sure thereContinue reading “TSK Journal – 2”
TSK Journal – 1
Writing a memoir (which I’m doing as part of therapy/coaching) while studying TSK, is exceedingly strange, but also one of the most interesting things I’ve ever done. I’m fascinated by the way I reach for something that at first seems so tangible and sure, only for it to wiggle and change the closer I get.Continue reading “TSK Journal – 1”
How Does Your Life Seem To You Now?
I’m laying on a heating pad, playing with a contemplative exercise a teacher I regard highly gave to a group years ago. I am one of two people in that group who actually did the exercise I think, much less two or three times. Each time was revelatory. It is a surprisingly radical act toContinue reading “How Does Your Life Seem To You Now?”
Arrival
A little loop of synchronicity as I skimmed through blog posts all the way back to the beginning, surprised to find that I’d started where I find myself again right now: reading Time Space and Knowledge. When I began this blog, I was at Exercise 17, while I’m almost to 14 now, working my wayContinue reading “Arrival”